Yeah, I do want to "save" her. I also want my kids to be validated by her. I want her to see me as a good person and value me. I want to be loved by her.

Still through all this, I can see good in her, and I can see things that I have always wanted in my life from her.

Those feelings were unique to her. I'm almost 50.... This is the only person I've ever been in love with, or wished for. I've never experienced "the one who got away".