I had this like psychotic crisis last night where I swore my mom was sick and was hiding it from me. Finally after a long text of her saying she wouldn't hide it from me and she would be getting finances ready for me and my brother and she like was just really urgently telling me she was fine. I believed her. But I was pretty S last night and I think its a med side effect. Possibly from my Carafate. Also I had run of of zofran a few days ago and that helps with my physical side effects of my anxiety from the nausea I get. I'm back on it now.

Today I'm feeling better and less anxious and not S. I'm watching a TV show instead of CNN. I did message my doctor about the carafate. My mom tells me not to worry about things. The house is paid off for me and my brother and is in a trust along with a decent sum of money and my sister is the payeee and my mom trusts her and my brother in law and so do I. My uncle and aunt are in charge of stuff too. My mom says everything has been taken care of by the lawyer. But then she points out to me that she is only 71 and my grandma lived to be 85 and my great grandma lived to be 96.

Idk. I think everyone worries about their parents getting older.

I think it was kinda the lack of zofran causing my weird anxiety because I do feel better then I did yesterday. I've sort of improved my diet. Last night I had another can of tomatoes for dinner. Then this morning I had some Green Giant cheesy cauliflower. Then I ordered my iced matcha latte the normal way instead of with skim milk so it would be more filling. I feel full on less calories then what I normally eat. But I don't feel like I'm restricting either.