Well my hair is pink! It’s super cute.

I did 30 minutes on the elliptical today. I decided since the weather was crappy to go to the gym and once there I decided to try the elliptical for the first time in months. I didn’t feel like I was gonna die! Usually I’m desperate to get off the elliptical. I specifically told myself to make it ten minutes at least and walk the rest on the treadmill if it was too much but I made it. I was so proud of myself that I’m going to go again tomorrow and up the intensity, at least for ten minutes. If I have to turn it down I will. I’m big on not making myself suffer during exercise. I used to push myself super hard but I think that would just turn me off from exercising. So now I go as hard as I can but if I’m feeling a bit too overworked I tone it down without making myself feel guilty about it. It’s been a little over a month and I’ve managed to exercise 4-5 times a week every week. I am definitely proud of myself. I decided not to focus on weight because I wasn’t really losing so now I’m not weighing myself and I’m focusing on eating for health and strengthening my body. It’s much better for me.

I went to Trader Joe’s and bought all sorts of yummy snacks, to be enjoyed in moderation. I love Trader Joe’s but I rarely go because it’s always so crowded. I go on a day like today when I have the day off and can go at an off time. It was still crowded but not nearly as bad as the weekends.

I have to contact my pdoc about my propranolol prescription. They are “waiting for approval” for a 90 day supply and he hasn’t responded yet. My heart rate keeps jumping over 100 bpm quite often during the day, which is the reason I was put on it in the first place. I’m starting to get chest tightness and pain briefly during the day which I assume is due to tachycardia. I don’t really feel like going to a cardiologist, once again they never take me seriously. The propranolol works fine if I can just get it approved.

I’m thinking of really pushing my mom to move in with my grandma for a couple of months so we can get her house in order. It needs new siding and some new windows to start with. The big box bay windows in the front is about to fall off the house it’s so rotted. But she won’t let anyone in the house because it’s such a hoarder’s nightmare. She needs to vacate and me and RS can clean the whole place out. We’re actually thinking of buying it if my mom will sell it to us cheap. We would totally redo the whole place. First clean it out, then a new kitchen, update electrical (nothing is grounded!), new heater, install central air because none of the windows support air conditioners, new bathrooms, new flooring…it would be costly and difficult but it would be a shame to let it go to waste. It’s a nice house, four bedrooms and two baths, in a great neighborhood with good schools. It may not be structurally sound anymore is the problem. We’ll find out when I get the siding guy in to look at it.