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Old Jun 22, 2023, 09:21 PM
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I had a customer return to me continuing to raise cane about a missing (at that point useless) SIM card and how incompetent I was doing my job, but somehow still wanting me to fix it while he passive-aggressively insults me all the way.

Basic summary: Everything I had direct control over was done and everything else he was complaining about dealt with his personal accounts, something I do not touch. It was an odd situation (one I couldn't resolve) and it sucked for him, but it's absolutely not my responsibility

Even though, rationally, there doesn't seem to be much to worry about, there's a voice in the back of my mind saying I'm going to be punished and punished severely for this. Punished for not doing the job I'm not supposed to do. People in my life seem to go "Challenge Accepted." when they hear "Not my problem." and move heaven and earth to make it my problem.

One of my psych evals (not sure when the occasion was), mentioned "Delusions of persecution." I believed I was uniquely cursed and guilty whether or not I deserved it. Is it really completely delusional when it's happened... multiple times?

In one of my previous jobs, a manager who had no connection to the situation or the customer I was dealing with wrote me up on the customer's say so. Went "Yes sir!" to the man with no authority over him. Another manager tried to make a case of forgetfulness (An item the customer wanted didn't get to them. It sat in a drawer until they came back.) a case of theft. Yet another manager tried to tell me I was the only one under her (out of 30 subordinates) that gave her grief. I was the only "bad apple" out of 30?

Let's go to the homefront, shall we? My father's contribution can be summed up this: I could cure cancer tomorrow and, in his eyes, I would be a heartless SOB for putting all those poor oncologists out of work. It's not just that I'm doing something "wrong." It has to be catastrophically wrong, malevolent and/or evil in some way.

It's taken a lot to get me out of this mindset, to not have to take notes out of fear some spiteful individual wants to try and make me pay, no matter the reality. It's nice to have the feeling my voice, my opinion carries weight. Not just my "confession."

I just want a fair shake and I hope this vent is much ado about nothing.
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Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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