Okay so I was deeply upset when my daughter age 20 told me she loves me but can't have me in her life. She said don't text me, don't contact me, etc. Well I've sent her texts saying what I needed to say. But tonight I've had a revelation.

God asked me years ago to cut my daughter out of my life, she was raised by my ex husband and his wife. I had visitation. I said no she needs me, I won't do that to her.

Now God had her basically say she doesn't need me. This is God's plan! I was distraught begged her forgiveness basically. Which fell on deaf ears. Now I know this what God intended my purpose in life is not inclusive of my daughter.

I still don't know what that is but I have a new lease on life. I know God is straightening my crooked path. Cutting people out of my life and I'll miss her but if she comes back I'll welcome her with open arms but I'm moving on.

I raised her. I love her. But she's not meant for what I'm here to do. And I've put it off long enough. I know I have. My time is limited. My mom even said the other day you won't be here in 20 years. So times a wasting.

God's plan is in full force each day a new step comes forth. I can finally leave the state I'm in and go where my heart leads me. I always stayed to be near her. So glad I'm making use of that voucher. It's portable so when I'm ready I'll continue my path.

This has really been eye opening. I fought to have her in my life I guess that fight has ended. Now it's time to live my life for me.