I feel like I'm on "outpatient suicide watch" right now. My "peer specialist" checks in on me for like two hours every day now and someone from the ACT team calls periodically and wants me to call them back periodically throughout the night. These people just want intel on your neurons. They want to steal your thoughts because your gifted and destined to be a winner and they're not, so they think your thoughts and keep you from even knowing they existed until they say something and suddenly you're like "hey, that was my thought first!" Voluntary was brought up twice today, but they said if I refused they wouldn't IEA me. Good thing my "peer specialist" hasn't seen my clean and sober in like three weeks.

Feeling fine right now. Went through all the emotions at 100+% over the day. Sat in a basement to a house that doesn't exist. Tried leaving a message at my GPs office over my stomach meds, didn't get a call back. I haven't been purging much so I don't think missing a week of the meds will mislead me to unhealth. I've been learning about anesthesiology because that's what youtube wanted me too learn about. Must be a sign. I don't think I could make it through med school so I must be getting surgery soon.