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Originally Posted by buddha1too
@ Soupe du jour It seems youve been through the wringer for some time now. I hope you feel better soon...
As for me? I've been scary stable for several months...a long time for me. Since my shrink retired, I've been seeing a NP for my prescriptions. She got rid of the Depakote I was on for years, and put me on Lamictal. She also prescribed Zyprexa and a small dose of an anti-depressant (the name escapes me at the moment). Since Lamictal fights food cravings, I've been able to lose a chunk of weight despite the Zyprex. I have no idea why my shrink kept me on my previous med cocktail for so long. This new NP really knows her shite. I am grateful but, even when I'm stable, I wait for the other shoe to drop. I've been on this roller coaster ride many times before. There was a line in the movie Tender Mercies (a rather old movie) that goes, "I don't trust happiness; I never have and I never will." I can relate.
I hope everyone has a good weekend despite the problems you might be struggling with. Again...I can relate. |
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buddha1too!
That's great you have such stability, and on a smaller cocktail. I had a similar experience after years on a behemouth. I believe such modifications to the "chemical consumption" can make a difference that's not just coincidence, yet you clearly still take a solid treatment amount that hopefully won't trigger a new episode. Please just coast along with this stability, happily, if you possibly can. I try to create a pleasant focus during such times, and keep my eyes on that ball.
My Lamictal was recently increased a bit, but so was my Seroquel IR, so no weight loss or low hunger for me. Maybe I can convince my pdoc to eliminate the extra Seroquel. I've been too tired and sleeping too much, lately.
My sister hasn't emailed me today. I'm glad. I hope she doesn't for a while. I won't contact her right away, either. What really sets me off is when she emails a triggering message at night her time (NJ) when I'm sleeping in Czech Rep. I see it as soon as I wake up (hard not to read), when I am already at my most irritable (NOT a morning person). She has been intermittently lying and secretive, which drives me nuts! She then socks me with surprises akin to F Us. I think 25% is from her and 75% her husband. Her husband is the main problem! She basically obeys the jerk. He's been a domineering abuser of her and my nephews from the start. It was clear as soon as I met him at 13 years old. She allows(ed) it, but I don't want him to abuse me, yet the sucker has power to do so, since my sister is the executrix of my father's estate. Once this is over, I will have ZERO to do with him for the rest of my life! I partially blame him for my youngest nephew's suicide. I have good reason. And he knows it!