The paranoid and fatalistic thinking from the other night isn't going away. But then again, maybe it isn't paranoia after all. One of the competing representatives has made it clear she's willing to try and undermine me and hasn't hesitated to try and sic the store's department manager on me to force her agenda. I had discussions with the man where, essentially, I heard her words coming out of his lips. It's really petty stuff and fully in line with the playbook I've experienced most of my life. "You don't want to listen to me? I'll move heaven and earth to make you listen!" I'm not her subordinate. I'm under no obligation to do anything she says or indulge her beyond simple politesse. Apparently, that cannot abide!
At any rate, I have another way to do the task she was whining about me doing (with no comment or muss or fuss from anyone until this afternoon), if only to shut her up. It'll cost me $40+, but anything to maintain the peace, right?
Also, my weekend has officially started. I don't work until Wednesday, so, venting aside, I'm not going to worry about work and work related purchases until Tuesday night! I need the time to destress! My dogs need time to stop barking too!
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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