I've been told, in the past, that I was faking it, that I was a leech, I was fat, I was lying, and to stop acting so Borderline. I've been yelled at, lied to, rejected, and abandoned. AND I have found some really good people along the way.

I'm sorry you have not had any good experiences with psych professionals. I know when I was with "bad" ones, I felt hopeless, grief, and rejected.