I woke up early in order to catch an early train. I haven't slept properly for at least a week. Again, I realize all my efforts and doing my best lead to failre and significant drawbacks. Everything what I care about has fallen apart during the last month. Tomorow, I have the last chance to pass an important/difficult exam and my computer broke down... Everything I can look forward to is getting cancelled or there are other reasons why I cannot be a part of it. I have no loved ones and there is no one who would support me