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Old Mar 01, 2005, 01:59 PM
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"r u ok sweetie??? i have definitely been there. i know how u r feeling and i hope these feelings won't cause u to cut even more."
Is it considered cutting more if I keep digging into it. I just feel like I'm here and not watching myself when I feel the pain. Do you know what I mean. I feel so on edge today like I could panic at any moment. I took my meds for the last couple of days, but part of me is still paranoid that people will trigger me or that they'll find out and avoid me. Because of aawareness day I decided to open up to one of my friends. It was nice to see his concern but yet being okay wiith it and now I don't have to deal with questions cause I know he'll see it sooner or later. (this is a different friend). I feel like I need the pain just to feel alive. I wish I could go home and sleep but I have a brain bowl competition and we are leaving at lunch. Why can't I just feel okay and not bound to anything?
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