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Old Jun 27, 2023, 06:20 AM
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No I don’t want it to happen again, I guess I just get frustrated with them sometimes and get impulsive. I need to stay on them though. Yeah last time I went off them I barely slept for days at a time and posted nude pics on a adult website and was talking with a bunch of random people and exchanging pics, so not a great thing, and spent ridiculous amounts of money which I’m still trying to recover from financially. I guess I should just remind myself of those things sometimes. Really out of character for me and I ended up mortified telling my therapist all of what went on. I definitely don’t want to do that again

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It's okay. I get it. I asked to be put on injections so I couldn't skip doses/cheek meds/throw them up after being checked (like while being med monitored or IP). I still want to stop them because I get frustrated with the side effects, but I'd rather feel a little restless and a little duller than usual than be broke, alone, guilt-ridden, ashamed, and humiliated.

One of the DBT skills I learned was making a pros and cons chart (not just a list). Maybe you could do that with taking your meds?
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