Anxiety can cause dissociation (But for few people). Dissociation is more "mind", disconnecting from your body, the world feeling "unreal", or thoughts feeling like hallucinations.

I'm sorry though.. The more you go outside, the easier it should get (Like agoraphobia) - Talking to people, and having nice conversations help, finding meaning.. In a quite terrible place. But if you have a phone (Or some technology), to connect to the internet, talk with people, watch movies and such, that's an awesome thing.

I remember (In the psych ward), I smuggled in a "weed vape" - I walked in, and had a panic attack. My legs were shaking so bad (I've never experienced that before). They gave me a drug test, and Seroquel. I felt better (Although they complained about the "THC", and locked me down).

That was in 2017 (A few months after my bad trip) - At one moment, I was dissociating (DPDR), and they didn't know what was wrong with me.. I said "It's like psychosis or anxiety, but it's not that..) - Usually, psychiatric teams don't know what depersonalization/derealization (Dissociation) is. It happens from trauma and stress.

They put me on Lexapro, and it made it sooo much worse - I stopped the next day. Same thing happened with Prozac (When I got out).

I spent years and years, having episodes of dissociation, not knowing what it was, and WHY. It was a long road/process.

What else was I gonna say.. Something important.. Oh yeah, the benzo dependency (In the past) - Can contribute to dissociation. It would be nice if they gave you something relaxing, Tizanidine, something at least..

Good job, on having the shower though! =]