i really feel like calling on-call but my peer specialist was literally just here this morning and I was laughing and joking with her and then I was sad at one point but then I was laughiing again when she left and I don't want to wait 15 minutes for them to call me back only to be asked what's going on and to say "I don't ****ing know I feel like a total shitstorm" and being asked what helps. If I knew what helps I would do it. You know what helps? Getting wasted but that's not an option right now and I know that's not the best thing to do.

They just tell me to distract myself anyways or use my coping skills

I'm beyond coping skills