I felt for you as soon as I read the title of this post, Scarlet.
Even though there's no ideal way of handling this, I think you can trust that L will do the best she can.
I doubt it's easy for her either, knowing that is one of the main things you are dealing with.
What can you do for yourself right now to help manage these feelings?
I can't remember if you've ever mentioned journalling.
Anyway, I'm sending you strength to be able to deal with this, however it may unfold.
Take care,
Lost
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'Somewhere up above the great divide
Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few
A man can see his way clear to the light
'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin