The last few days have been quite trying on my patience. had to jumpstart the vehicle after the interior lights were left on and then I found I couldn't upload pictures from a computer to a phone using Bluetooth only to find out later that the phone didn't have enough power so they would upload. I got upset and the next thing I knew I got some rather hurtful remarks from mother, and I'm thinking she probably didn't mean that in the heat of the moment. but still I was hurt and didn't feel like doing much of anything the rest of the day. I was all too happy to get away and be in a store with younger people shopping by myself. but after I had gotten some items from the store, I still felt pretty empty. Still nothing seemed to make me happy. I rested a while, and I cheered up only a little bit when I saw a rabbit and got a picture of that animal. My feelings of loneliness just worsened when this week started. It seemed to confirm to me how much I'm truly valued by her. It's painfully clear it won't get better now. and it makes me a little hopeless. Sometimes I wonder if anything can help this pain inside.