Feeling at the precipice of I don't know what. I have been in limbo for almost two years, and everything is coming to an end soon. I don't know what I will face in court or what will happen to me, but I have to be grateful that I am of sound mind today.

I haven't had any depressive or manic episodes in a very long time so I should be grateful but I feel empty. I can't control anything and I think that's what scares me the most. I just have to have faith which is really hard for me.