I am really at a loss at what to do tomorrow. I have a team meeting tomorrow morning with both therapists, community support and someone from the assisted living place I am kind of staying at. Well I actually haven't been staying there since I've been having problems there and since I have decided to move out on my own again. I really feel I am ready to do so, even though I did just move in like in April, but I feel like I am back together emotionally and psychologically enough to be on my own and take care of myself. I am looking at moving to an apartment complex but there are 6 people ahead of me on the list. Plus it is taking everything I have financially to live at the assisted living and really they are so disrespectful. I am staying at my parents house currently and am planning to until I can get my apartment. I was planning on staying in the assited living for a year but because I am feeling confident with myself and because of the progress I've made, plus the problems I have had with staff and a few residents, I am no longer even considering the assisted living as an option. I realize if I leave they will not let me go back, not even temporarily for respite or anything, I am will to take that chance.

I don't kknow it's just this meeting tomorrow freaks me out. the person they have go to my meetings really intimidates me and I tend to shrink and almost have age regression when she is at my meetings, she is very confrontational and it makes me feel like lower than dirt. I feel completely paralyzed because she always points the blame on me. I have asked if they would send someone else, I did when I lived there last time, but they won't. I think it's because they know I become overly passive when she is there, so for them to win she goes. Any suggestions on how I can stay strong?