My boss will be taking some time off this month and/or the next, so she’s arranging for my trainer from my last office to help cover the mornings. I have mixed feelings. I’m glad it’s someone who has helped cover this office before and it’s someone I know, plus it’s not like we’ll be spending much time together, I think? Maybe just a couple hours of overlap a day? Buuut… it’s my old trainer from my previous office…

The trainer called yesterday afternoon to talk to my boss who already left for the day and my trainer and I talked for 30 minutes. Or, she mostly talked and I mostly listened. It’s the same old ****. **** talking our old lead, **** talking our old coworkers, **** talking our old boss, **** talking her new boss, **** talking her new coworker, **** talking my new boss. **** **** ****.

That’s life, right? People **** talking each other. Nothing special, but I think what it boils down to for me is: I hate who I am when I’m interacting with her. I’m not challenging her notions in any significant and meaningful way. I’m participating in the **** talking and it makes me feel like **** about myself. But she did walk me through a new procedure our organization is implementing, so our conversation wasn’t a total failure.