I have written very much to day, in spite of my depression. Hope I don't make you tired! Writing is for me a way of lowering my depression.

Like we all try to do, I suppose, I am working on becoming better in my mood. I accept a slow recovery over around six weeks or more as I mentioned in my post 879 this thread. It is helpful to me to have a time frame. I become more persistent with a time frame, don't give up so easily.

This evening I have used to read myself up again on depression and bipolar depression and I see that I have forgotten that a lot of my "behavior" is really listed in the diagnose manual. As an example, I beat myself up over being tired, having a problems with concentration, for feeling guilt too easily and more.

Now that I have repeated the symptoms, I will try to be more kind to myself, to say something like this or similar: "You really are depressed, Rosi. It's OK to not be able to this or that because of lack of energy. You don't have to feel inferior in relation to other people. Guilt is your depression speaking" and so on.

For me to rediscover, what beieng depressed really means, was like as if I had found a solution to the worlds problems, something really big to inspire me to take good care of myself.

I had to write it down while I still remembered. (Have never been good to write short).