It happens.. You must live.. I try to help people with SI.. There's something about life - Where I can't let someone take it (Even if I want to take it myself).. It's the most precious thing, to live..

So many people, fade away - No one has the same philosophy, all a different story - Although we are human, and share love, and for wanting things to be better. For ourselves, people around us.

So we gotta start with that.. And build it up. It takes time. We fall down sometimes (But that doesn't mean that progress has failed - Just that we're stronger once we come out of it, and having gone through it).

Existence, to build - Make it better. Drugs (For example, meds or euphoriants) help - But so can anything else.. The healthiest things, is being kind to yourself. With SI, there's a battle within the mind, heart, soul.. to get away from the pain.

I'm not sure if most people with it feel the same pain that I do.. I wonder if the pain that I feel is from schiz, PTSD, or some demented, broken part of my neurochemistry - That needs to be thrown away, into the trash - And that everyone in the world would be better off without that type of energy in the world. That I'm judged for it, that's it's a wrong feeling.

But it's all valid. In this infinite life, we go up and down.. throughout every dimension. Idk if heaven or hell exists after life, or that we reincarnate - A problem that I have? Is that I can rest.. Deeply (Dead) for a while, and then live again (In some other dimension/perception), once I have the strength.

Idk if our memories are connected to all of the infinite universe.. They likely are - But you turn the corner, you're a different person. There's thing that are missing, always - And what we have right now? This moment.. It's all there is, and ever will be. People need love, joy, peace.. and?? What else?? I can't list it all.. I should.. (One sec I'll find some pieces of positive words...) ;

"Wonder, joy, love, connection, kindness and hope"!

Those are positive things.. For me, it's really really dark.. cuz I've analyzed my reality to death.. "What's the point? Everything is the same" - We're divine though. We want life to be positive.. Pain, suffering etc? - It's negative for a reason. No one would want that, otherwise it would default back to positive.

The positive and negative... Good and bad... Life and death.. It might seem cliche, stupid - To follow what everyone else does - But the point is to share.. Some people even take. Take, take - Evil, greed, power, manipulation..

It can all be overwhelming - But if your brain chems were okay? You could just experience life in the moment, and not judge yourself, argue, put yourself down. There always needs to be someone that challenges the bad thoughts, to be a friend of the self. When you're all alone? Hope wants you to hold on, with your own self (God) - And you can pray to that. Like a Mantra.

When negative thoughts happen, the mind repeats that to itself.. And it becomes real/true - Or at least guides it to that destination. Eminem, a lyric is "You can do anything you set your mind to man..".