Why does anyone try to do anything good for their community, when people are fleeing the country, taking everything for themselves - It's just survival at this point. My psychiatrist might want to help people, but I'm sure he has existential crises as well.

He's giving me Big Pharma poison of course, and I take other poison willingly, and everything is poison. The world has rotted to the core, and is bloated - Just people scavenging..

There's nothing real here. What am I to make sense of anything - Sure, we all die.. And people are to just live life.. But it's all short term delusion of safety etc.

Just throw me out on the streets. That's what I deserve. It'll happen to most people anyways. And the other side of this thought exercise? Make as much money as I can in panic for survival - Or something. Yeah I can be grateful for something that will last a year maybe - Or 5 minutes, before I have a stroke.

It's insane.