Hello,

Im finally coming to terms with my asexuality (again!), but now im wondering about my dislike about kisses, hugs and caresses...

since up to now all those elements had a sexual context, i mostly disliked them all. (making me believe im also aromantic)

but now, thinking about an hypothetical asexual relationship, i wonder if those kisses, hugs and caresses would still disgust me or not.

and in case the still would, then what kind of relationship am i looking for?

a friendship? a "special" friendship?

i still want that someone that makes my heart beat faster when i see him/her (maybe im bi-asexual), that makes my heart burn with enthusiasm about what we are talking about, sharing and fantasizing... but without the physical component, what would that relationship be?
(it could also be a long distance thing, with me shaking at the thought of reading a letter or an email...)

am i looking for a squish without the physical component? does it even exist?

anyone knows what im talking about? opinions please?