Mum is losing her patience I got a candle today and I was opening it excitedly I accidentally dropped it getting some glass on the floor, I pick up most of the glass shards but because it wasn't perfect mum is yelling at me. Now, I'm my head it's not that big a deal because it's easy to clean but also i burnt some of the candle and because it was broken some of it spilled into the table. My losing her head over it screaming yelling at me. I try cleaning it but it's not done to her standard okay. She's like your 27 and a 9 year old knows how to do better than you, you don't even know how to do things that are common sense I guess. So she gets a hairdryer and then the wax melts off. It's getting close to 6pm I'm getting hungry I get Nando's from the fridge and she tells me not to touch the food until she does it okay. So I proceed to try and put the Nando's in the fridge I drop it on the floor accidentally but luckily no chicken falls on the ground she starts yelling at me and swearing at me. Saying I cause her problems because of my stomach. She says she resents having me and one day I'm going to have children that's gonna do the torture that you do to me. I ask her to stop. Now we're eating but she says that if she was cruel she'd kick me out and wouldn't feed me. In my opinion I don't think that's cruel I wish I already could have my own house and work. Now the funny thing is now she's yelling at me saying I'm manipulative because apparently I can study but I can't do anything around the house I don't know how to do things that are common sense. If I ask her to show me how to do something she just yells at me says it's common sense and then says I'll do it. She doesn't even like the way I clean dishes. Just feeling kinda stupid and yes I feel like I can't even do basic tasks in the home. My confusion is that she thinks I'm manipulating her. I don't understand how that could be because for 5 years straight I had to be kicked out of my Tafe because I couldn't even concentrate and she's saying I'm manipulating her so she does everything for me and so she's a slave. Like it some what benefits me to live on centrelink not have a social life not even know how to take care of my own house or have any independence hmm. I don't understand how I am manipulating her because I'm honestly sick of her running around me cleaning everything I do. Telling me what clothes to wear and when because it makes me feel like a child I don't feel like I have much of an identity because of that. When I say the counsellor is right that I am enmeshed to my mother now I understand exactly what I mean because I don't have any independence I'm pretty much like a little baby having booby and it's like. How do I become independent when she won't even like me try I get that I'm annoying but she just yells at me and when I do something not to her high standard of perfection it's like you might not even try. Honestly I just wish I had my own house and then she wouldn't have to yell at me and then she wouldn't have to worry about it being messy.