I found out I'm overdrawn. OMG Waaaay overdrawn.

Called T to tell her my last check to her is now rubber. :-(

And that I can't come in Thursday.

Sobbing, keening,wailing, stupid idiot I am.

And T isn't even in on Tuesdays now. Not that I asked her to call because I didn't. I am far too embarassed and humiliated and furious with myself to want to 'face' her even on the phone.

But she calls anyway. :-) To tell me pleasantly to "Come in on Thursday. We'll work it out." Plain, simple, gentle, accepting.

Who is this person whom I don't disgust even when I disgust myself? Sometimes it's kind of weird waiting for the "You stupid IDIOT!!!" and it doesn't come.

I love my T.