Dear T,
Well, it's a bit eerie reading my journal from when I was 18 and seeing very similar words to what I've said to you and others. I mean, recurring patterns much? I knew they were there, but reading them made it hit home more.

Do I talk about some of that tomorrow? I'm mainly unsure because I'll have pick up D at camp immediately after the session, and I'm afraid I'll be all emotional. But maybe it would help you understand more--especially how this is about something much bigger than you, something that was there at least 28 years ago. I mean, we've talked about it, but maybe sharing some of my actual words from that time? Plus that card from the guy I dated. Or perhaps I should wait?

I just wish I'd written consistently in there--it's like I'm missing some important episodes of a TV show. It's perhaps in printed-out emails somewhere? Or some other journal that is hiding, either here or at my parents'. I suppose I could ask people I knew then about it, but I don't know that I want to go there.

Anyway, I'll see how I'm feeling tomorrow in terms of what I want to talk about.

Love,
LT