Had a good day at work. Got my work done. Meeting with my boss for a mid year performance review - says I’m doing great. Had lunch with some people in the office.

I was going to go to the gym but I was tired and a little bit sore. So I went home and got Five Guys for dinner.

But now for the first day in a while I feel guilty about eating fries. I feel I ate too many. Empty fat and carbs. Why did I eat them. Why did I eat so many.

It makes me want to back track on everything. Stop eating so much. Because I’ve been working out so much and so hard (which I do because I enjoy it - not because I want to be thin) I’m constantly hungry. It’s uncomfortable sometimes feeling so hungry but I’ve been good at eating food when I feel hungry.

I’m almost five months out from my anorexia relapse. I feel so uncomfortable now. These thoughts about ‘only eat good food’ or ‘don’t eat so much’. It’s exhausting.

I guess it’s good I see my doctor on Friday and my dietician on Saturday.

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