Yes, im steadfast in my commitment to therapy and healing. I've never felt hopeless, broken, until now.

I was so excited to come home and see my wife and we sgmhatef the triumphs of our day. I picked nectarines for her.

Everyday i ask, "What can i do to make you smile today?" Today, it was nectarines from our tree.

I believe in my heart, despite the harsh coldness of her words, that there is still something there. Maybe its a foolish thought, but i believe that all i can do is make each day beautiful, and eventually, she will feel safe again.

There has never been infidelity. Only my negativity and anger over simple things.

I know that i caused this and i will spend whatever resources i have left trying to change this outcome, even if don't survive.

Nothing could replace what we had