H wants me to go back to school for computer science just an Associate's degree. And eventually get a remote job. In honestly I'm not doing good without a purpose. I haven't colored or really got out of bed in 7 months except for dinner or occasional Dr appointment. I can't say I'm depressed. He wants to get a gym membership for an indoor pool. But has to be inclusive for Miguel. So it has to be community center. So it takes more digging into gym's history. I don't know it's like without mood swings I'm just a blob. Don't really want to interact. I still hate where I live and we need money to move to a handicap friendly place of our own. It feels like there's no point. I get a job I loss SSI, medical, and my medication which I obviously need. There's no homeschool groups around. So that's not an outlet we have. We've thought about moving back but we can't it's unfortunately not safe. So here is home now and I have to find my way.