My symptoms are currently;

1. Sleeping too much
2. Struggling to get to sleep
3. Struggling to remain asleep
4. Struggling to get up in the morning taking me up to 4 hours to get up
5. No motivation
6. Lack of interest in doing anything other than lying in Silence
7. Can't be bothered with people
8. Struggling when in house to do or maintain my house
9. Struggling to maintain a routine
10. Thoughts of putting things in place in case I'm no longer able to or not here

I understand I'm in a depressive state. It was bound to cone I've been hypo manic or manic since January. No help from my mental health team. I've had to ride it all out.

Tomorrow (Sunday 9th July) is my Mum's 2nd Anniversary. I'm holding it together today but I've been in tears the whole week. I understand this is a natural phase I will have to deal with. She was cremated so we have a plaque where her parents are buried so we can visit. I don't like cemetaries plus I live too far away. But I'm going tomorrow with my siblings and Dad.

I wish I could get some kind of support from my mental health team but I can't. I guess I'm just frustrated which is why I'm writing this??

Anyways sorry for bugging you guys, hope you are all well