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nonightowl · Jul 09, 2023 at 07:37 AM

Even though this thread, like many others, will fall probably into obscurity after a few replies, I still feel compelled to write this.

There are people who do the right things, with diet and exercise yet come down with some serious illness or have an accident. Then there's people who gobble burgers and fries, smoke like a chimney and live to be in their 90's. I think it's random in some ways.

And I had nightmares about this. Part of it was about a woman I saw on a TV show, who did the right things but caught a serious (but not fatal) illness. One of her cows had this disease, so that's how she got it. She got it in spite of her healthy diet not eating meat. She and her family ate that one because it was ill.

Possible trigger:

There was also a part where I was with some co-workers back where I used to work. But they weren't the same people. One of them was named Natalie, seriously. She and a few people had terminal illnesses, including this Natalie. And we had to write some kind of thing about why we think this happened to them, like they did something. What the eff? This wasn't a class in school but a benefits department in a big company. But for that day or moment, it was like school.

I ended up doing something like smoking a cigar, though in real life I don't and never have smoked! I thought "Why not? It doesn't always matter what you do."

The next day I was late and found my other co-workers having abandoned their work. I asked why and was told they lost their motivation. They said that stuff like that doesn't matter really and didn't plan to return, not caring about their jobs anymore. The co-workers left were the ones with few days to live. I ended up crying and hugging them. And I too walked out, thinking how trivial it is.

Glad I got that out of my system. My point is again that $hit happens, even when one eats right, exercises, etc. And with the climate the way it is, I don't want to live to be a 100. I don't want a serious illness but this world isn't one that's going to be easy to live in----no matter what your age.