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I can't say I've engaged in that form of self-injury, but I know how hard it is to stop a behaviour when it starts off as a sort of 'nervous habit' to deal with anxiety.

There is a big post in the main Self Injury forum ... "Things to do instead of self-injuring" that is pinned at the top. You should check it out, because there may be other ideas there that you hadn't thought of.

Sometimes the urge can be really strong and no positive coping mechanisms seem to work... that's when I either try to get out of the house and be around people (even if I don't know them, like going to a mall) or I take a nap. Usually once I fall asleep and wake up again... the urge is gone, or at least diminished.

I'm sorry your T is on campus.... I see one on campus as well, so I know how difficult it is to get ahold of someone when its the summertime and you're nowhere nearby.

I'm sorry about your mom's anniversary. That's hard. We have a grief forum as well (if you didn't know) that you can post in ... lots of understanding people there as well.

Keep posting here. Write poetry. Write words. Rip something to shreds (I like ripping old books... very satisfying). Or if you don't have a stuffed animal already, buy one and punch it. Or throw it. Or cry and use it to soak up tears. Or you can talk to it. Or hug it to death. Sometimes that helps for the emotional side of things.

You can PM me whenever, and I will always be willing to listen and offer support. Be safe, and take care of yourself.