My psychiatrist says my depression is situational. I'm basically on my own to work through this. My daughter still isn't speaking to me and I'm really worried she never will. My psychiatrist says her reaction shows she too is dealing with mental illness because he called it an over reaction.

My mom is worried about me right now, and I'm trying to change my thinking but honestly I want to die. This life has been awful. No matter what I do it just gets worse. I really hate that I woke up this morning. Too much is happening in my life and I'm frozen.

I'm trying to distract myself. That helps a little. I have dbt group today but no one knows what to say to me. I can't cope with losing my daughter. I love her so much. I'm trying to tell myself to live for Jesus. That's not helping me either. I've made myself sick over this. I've lost my appetite. I don't know if I can survive this. She was my will to live.