Right now I'm struggling with wanting to die. My group leader pulled me aside to ask if I have a plan. Right now just begging God to take me out of this horrible life, really. My mom called me twice so far today, she's checking on me, I know.

I watched Joel Olsteen on youtube. It's helping sort of. But I really do want out of this life, it's been awful and no matter what I do it's getting worse.