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Old Jul 11, 2023, 02:43 AM
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Originally Posted by Aviza View Post
Right now I'm struggling with wanting to die. My group leader pulled me aside to ask if I have a plan. Right now just begging God to take me out of this horrible life, really. My mom called me twice so far today, she's checking on me, I know.

I watched Joel Olsteen on youtube. It's helping sort of. But I really do want out of this life, it's been awful and no matter what I do it's getting worse.
Aviza, the very worst thing that happened in my family was the death of my youngest nephew to depression. I can't tell you how severely that has affected my family, psychologically. I also know, for sure, that his depression would have lifted. It's never a solution to life's struggles. Please put this surely temporary rift between you and your daughter aside. As I wrote above (I hope you read it), it's most certainly temporary. We often grossly overestimate the severity of things when depressed. Also, people do forgive, even the worst of offenses.

I mentioned CBT above. I hope you consider some or reading up on how it can help. See Cognitive Distortions: 10 Examples of Distorted Thinking I'm posting this for you and for others.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1

Psych Medications:
* Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg
* Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg
* Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg

I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia.
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Thanks for this!
Aviza