You did nothing wrong, and your feelings about what happened are understandable. You will be able to process this when you talk to your therapist about it, and I'm sure that it will be ok. What happened sounds like just a little bit of a role-reversal, only both of you stopped before you actually assumed the role of taking care of your therapist, as you felt inclined to do. Therapists are human, and have feelings and things that they can get upset about. The difference between the therapist and the client is essentially that while you are the client it is your turn to get the therapy. There is something about reversing roles that is countertherapeutic, because you shouldn't have to take care of your therapist, any more than a child should have to take care of a parent. It can be damaging when someone who is supposed to be taking care of you needs you to take care of them. But she did get it together, and you didn't have to take care of her. You just got a glimpse of her humanity, and there is nothing wrong with that. But the awkwardness comes from getting so close to a role reversal, and the confusion of wanting to comfort someone you care about who is hurting. We don't like it when our therapists, or our parents, etc. hurt. And it is confusing to want to make them better when it isn't our job.
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