Really sorry you’re going through this. It sounds like your med isn’t working for you, maybe go back to your Dr and talk about this. As for your therapist dumping you, what happened there? Do you want to tell us more about that?

You mentioned being needy with friends, I struggle also with feeling that way, someone (a friend) told me I wasn’t needy but rather I had needs. It might be this way with you too. It almost certainly has its roots in your upbringing, it sounds like your emotional needs weren’t met growing up.