I went to the board game/coffee event in the community room. I was the only person who showed up so I just sat there by myself and did a some of a jigsaw puzzle. At least it got me out of my apartment for awhile. I sat outside in the morning too, in the sun for like 20 minutes to try to get vitamin D. My mood has been pretty low the past few weeks and I’ve been struggling a lot with motivation to do basic things like clean, shower, cook, leave apartment, hygiene, etc. and had suicidal thoughts for a couple weeks. I feel a little better today though, I’m trying to make more of an effort to get out more. Even if it’s just to browse at the local library or sit in the community room or in the courtyard. Anything to get out of my walls and out of my head for a bit.

I practiced ukulele for 30 minutes tonight. Going to try to get on the treadmill tomorrow. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow too. I should probably bring up the struggles with doing basic things/low mood etc. I feel kind of embarrassed by the fact that I’ve been struggling with those kinds of things. At least I’ve kept up with volunteering though

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