I am getting married in 38 days. My sobriety is important to me, and this will be the first time in 4 years. We choise to wait until the wedding night. Now that's been 4 years I am a bit nervous. Will he want it as much as I will? He responded to me tonight and that felt good, but it stinks to wait. At the same time, I am concerned that some of the past beavior will return. Yet, there's a part of me that knows that porn is no longer a draw. I was repulsed by it the last time. Maybe it's becasue of a good relationship, yet I am scared about the first time with him. AND I have 38 days almost 37 days to find ways to relieve the nerves. I Hope!!