I was.. afraid of my life.. And the spiritual/mental fatigue.. I anesthetized myself last night.

I'll let my psychiatrist know things.. I'll write them down later today (There's a solid note for myself!)..

I'm holding it all together.. Not many people have this much systematic chaos in their lives..

But I feel very good - I'll take nothing to self medicate today, my meds are very good.. I'll tell my mom, that I'm sorry for pushing her so much (About my symptoms - Cuz she has a lot of problems too/dealing with life) - She's just a person like me, trying her best.. and I should know that..

So we will work together.. I want to work together, with everyone in my life.. And tell the truth/be honest, as much as I can.. Live more simple, relaxed - That everything is okay..