Thank you so much. It does hurt. I am not devastated... I am more so sad over the loss of myself, than over the loss of him. I became a shell of who I really am or was while I was with him. He domineered over me, and I shrunk in response and out of fear of him... he would turn on me for the most innocent comments or questions I asked. I wasn't allowed to question him ,or else he would explode and it was cause an enormous knock down drag out war and battle between us. It was SO toxic being with him. And now I have to rebuild myself and my life. A good start is that I just got an amazing job. So at least I am employed again. Next is really focusing on my healing. I know I will be OK.. I am back on track to finding myself and loving myself again. And that's all a great thing. TY.