i sorry this has happend to you ... im also sorry to have gotten to the point to say that in my old age ive turned into a such a full blown cynic that at this point in my life how ive learned to deal with it is by expecting its going to happen so im not taken by surprise when it does.
i regret my bummer outlook on whats happened to you but just know that its always fine and dandy to hope for the best as long you remember not to expect it to happen