Time will be your friend Dear Person.

And you will get over the violations of trust both physical and mental by this man ... in your own time.

It's a process. Therapy is a good place to start, or joining a victims group for a short time, or and therapeutic group would even be better.

This way you can hear the event until you don't need to give it attention anymore, and learn coping abilities for any future relationships - and the cure all is if you learn to trust yourself completely, you will be alright.

peace and comfort,
nightbird