I very seldom log in anymore, but I do read to check on old friends and new acquaintances on a somewhat regular basis. I used to post quite often, but I haven't done so since my partner retired. I worried about how things would go once we were together 24/7, but she's so much more relaxed since she ditched her pressure-packed job. Things have never been better at home.

Another change has made my life better, too. My shrink retired about a year ago, so I now see a psychiatric nurse practitioner once a month. While your mileage may vary, I've found NPs spend more time monitoring how things are going. My PNP makes regular med changes based on how I'm doing...and spends about 15 minutes with me, while my old shrink only saw me four times a year and spent a mere five minutes with me, focusing on his keyboard so he could record details of the visit. It makes a difference when one's provider actually looks one in the eye. I'm now off the Depakote I was on for years and have returned to Lamictal. That, plus other med adjustments have made me more stable.

So...that's my attitude of gratitude. As for the depression I've experienced lately, it persists, but without the intensity of depressions past. It still sucks, but I'm making a concerted effort to stay out of bed and spend as much time outside in the sun as I can. Motivation is low but, fortunately, my partner understands. She's been dealing with my moods for 20 years...bless her soul.

I'm far too far behind to respond to everyone's situation, but I do follow along. To those of you who are doing well, keep it up. For those who are struggling, hang in there. BP is a fickle thing. Don't give up before the miracle happens. Peace.