Beautiful day =]

Beautiful life (:

Today will be the first day, without olanzepine.. I replaced the 5mg of olanzepine (In the evening) with 3mg of Invega (To take before sleep) - I still get to take 5mg of olanzepine PRN (In case anything bad happens).

I thought might have had to be on olanzepine forever.. I just needed the DPDR to go away.. And it did D; It was worse than psychosis.. And also, it spawned delusions..

I was really methodical with my mind.. And how to cure DPDR.. I had to take benzos (For panic attacks) - Only each time they happened (1mg, 2mg, then sometimes, 3mg lorazepam - At most)..

Knowing a little about neuroplasticity, the longer I had DPDR, the more my brain would have had it as it's default setting.. My eyes would move UP in direction.. And zig zag.. I've been horrified, beyond belief.. But I'm mostly healed now..

And in life, I'm in a good place.. Self medicating doesn't work for 99% of people long term. But with the help of psychiatrists.. Especially when they listened to me, was good.. You know it helps when a psychiatrist laughs and says "It's like I'm talking with one of my medical students" lol.. Am grateful though...

But still much work and healing needs to be done.. Lol ^-;