It’s complicated. He does have good qualities tbh at times. All men are mean & controlling to me. Sime more than others.

So, what choice do I have? No other decent guy will want a messsed unemployed fat middle aged ugly woman with mental health issues. So I’m stuck. Only a messed up loser will maybe put up with me. Someone like a drug addict or something like that. No thanks.

At least I have a roof over my head & am not being physically beaten. No one could ever love me. No decent guy ever liked me.