I don't know why I crush on the people I do I feel so sad at myself why would I crush on a person like that like I must have some low self esteem ****. Sometimes I wonder why a guy would date me anyway they all just want sex. I have nothing to offer nothing to love. It's not like I get guys interested me so why would I crush on someone just because there attractive that's retarded **** right there. Sometimes I feel sad at myself about how I feel about people **** it. Men don't want a relationship with me I should get over it. Not make it worse by crushing on people I couldn't have because I'm lonely and sad.