Today i started a new program to create, within myself, the perfect husband, even though i have no idea where my wife will come from!!!!!

Today, i started on a brand new journey towards self-healing to an even greater degree, to make myself better at understanding, being compassionate, including self-compassion and building a better self image.

I've lived with any physical intimacy for (4) years and have remained faithful to my wife.

Lat year, she told me she felt guilty that i had to live without physical intimacy and she released me from any vow or covenant i made with her and she set me free to go find someone to share physical intimacy with, even offering to meet that prospective person and assure them that we would have her blessing.......and i still stayed and remained faithful.

She still cuddled with me every night until July 2nd, 2023, when she sent me the breakup text.

From that moment, she stopped cuddling with me, she stopped wearing her beautiful wedding rings, she quit kissing me goodbye (just a peck) in the mornings and she quit telling me when she was leaving....all of these changes, quote literally, from one minute to the next.

Very hurtful, even after 4 years of no lovemaking, it hit me like a ton of bricks.