Dear T,
Guess you aren't changing your mind on that. At least maybe you understand a little more why it's hard for me when you won't say anything about where you're going?

I do think some of this is missing closeness and connection with people. But maybe what you said about age is part of it--maybe it's difficult to feel the same closeness with people as I did when I was, say, 18? Or 12?

I guess it's just really hard when I feel some degree of connection/closeness with you, then it's like BOUNDARIES! Nope, not saying anything about where I'm going.

Maybe it's not possible to feel connected to people like I wish I could beyond fleeting moments? Or at least small stretches of time, like a few weeks or months or years. Maybe I just need to appreciate those times (with whoever) for what they are and not expect anything to last.

Love,
LT