Here I am at the breakfast table. I am angry! It is hard to be a senior. What shall one fight for? May be life lasts for 10 more years. My Christian values forbid suicide.

I miss my ordinary work and collagues. I miss having the parties before Summer and Christmas. I miss being treated like a person with knowledge.

I found a senior association. They had a New Year party at an hotel 22/23. I filled out the aplication, now, so I can participate at 23/24 and you know what. It didn't go through .

I am pissed!

I remembered that anger can be used as a constuctive force. After breakfast I will skip all my routines, put cotton in my ears, place a hat on my head and knit scarf around my troat and walk, walk, walk ....